everything sucks today.
didnt expect my throws and my catchin tat bad.
for today's training, its a small match within our frisbee.
we were being split into group.
for my team which is team 2, we have 4 guys and 4 girls.
they are quite strong but somehow, today is not my day.
can you imagine someone droping disc and miss catches for more than 10 times.
when she finally got the disc, she gave a lousy throw.
i have no idea wads wrong wid me.
someone is not on form today too. she drop disc.
but out of 10 throws, she onli DROP 1 or none.
but for me, out of 10 throws , i onli CATCH 1 or none.
its such a big diff between me and her.
its the fact tat she a good player, but this isnt a good excuse.
the worse thin is, im playin so bad, yet i keep skipping training with valid reasons ( of cos )

SO SORRY TO TEAM 2. i will try my best and works harder !!

HELLO EVERYONE :)
have been super busy these fews days. really very very busy.

WORKING LIFE
hmmmm. have been working since the day my holiday start. since 28 to 14 ( mooncake festival)
was working as a mooncake promoter at my mum's hotel. the pay is quite alright. but the working time a bit too tiring. normal working time is everyday 9 am to 10 pm. so everyday need to wake up at 6.30 cause i prepare quite slow plus it the peak hour. so cannt so late leave hse. and guess wad, on the forth day of my work, i have to open shop, alone. which is like damn damn tough. cos i alway afraid tat i will do somethin wrong. and those who coming at 10 am arent helping me at all. they have just started working onli. so.... hais. and by the time i reach home, its alreadi 12 plus and after bathing and doing rubbish , i slept at 1 plus 2. im so tired , yet no one understand.
they are the ones who want me to work. yet when i go home late, they onli know how to scold me for being home so late. i did not went home for 2 days cos i OT. can you imagine i start work at 8 am end at 3 am the next next. the cycle continue for a few days. im so so tired, and unhappy wid the girls i work wid. no one understand this. all they know is blame and blame. even the only thin that make me happy ( frisbee ) , they tink tat its useless and wan me to quit.
sometimes i feel so helpless and useless. because of this work, my skills , speed, stamia , EVERYTHING is deproving. yet, everyone is improving. i feel like a burden to them when i join in for competition. i do not want to join in the team cause of my ATTENDANT, i want to join because thy want me to, because they think tat im somethin useful.

STUDIES
the result is out. and my result is ..... i wunt type out not tat im ashame( which i should be ) but i lied to my parents about it. so i scare my brother will see my blog. so.. anyway, it sucks. i fail my macro. monday is my retest but i still haven study yet. i feel like repeating the whole sem. to me , its useless havin this result if i wan to go to Uni. i got not even half of wad he got. and for ur infor, he got 3.5 or 3.7. dun rmb le. but i will not give up. next sem, i aim for 3.3 to 3.5. i know its hard, but i really hope tat i can do it. my o lvl arent bad, so this shows tat im not tat stupid. jia you !!

SISTER
everyone have been asking me out. but it seems like i do not have the time to do so. not i have forgotten you girls. but i really need time. mayb 12 more hours per day will be enough for me to do all the things i wan.
took some time to look through the girls blog. memories and many other stuff come across my mind. conflict, laughter, tears of joy, unhappiness is wad we gone through together. but sometimes, it seems like our relationship arent tat strong.mayb, not as strong as we tot we are, especially you. i feel kinda sad and emo now, which i duno y.


i will stop here for now. duno when i will have the mood to update.